If you know me in person, you'll definitely be aware of the fact that I used to be one of the biggest Rihanna fans. To me, she was the 'real role model' and she still is, even tough she does not like to consider herself one. However, over the past fifteen years, she has proven to the whole world that she's a powerful human being and a great example of women's empowerment through authenticity, creativity, vulnerability and audacity.

Nicki Minaj did not lie when she said "Dem island girls is the baddest" because they definitely is (are) and many of them achieved a lot despite originating from small and isolated places, including our beloved badgalriri. She has single handedly proved to the entire globe that no matter how humble your background is, you can achieve big things and this actually reminds me of Lupita Nyong'o's emotional Oscar's acceptance speech when she reminded us that our dreams, passions and aspirations are valid.

I still remember the day I got my very first MP3 player, it only had two songs: Bob Sinclar's iconic Love Generation and Rihanna's If It's Lovin' That You Want. Back in the day, I did not know how to upload music to the device so I contented myself simply with listening to those two track. By dint of playing Rihanna over and over again, her voice grew on me and transformed into some kind of drug that I became addicted to. The lord spoke to me through a song and thus became enlightened as to the truth.

Getting my first personal computer made it easier for me to keep myself updated on her music, her latest shows and her appearances during award shows. Basically everything! Rihanna was my spare time and my default topic. The thirst became even real when she dropped her glossy dance-pop audio version of the holy book a.k.a Loud. It was the album that made me feel very delighted and euphoric whenever I put my headphones to listen to its timeless bops. The following year, Talk That Talk was released. It had a completely different feel to it as if her previous opus and the one before which was quite murky and rage-fuelled had a baby and then Unapologetic came out later in 2012 to complete the new image of the versatile rising star.

After the release of her seventh studio album, I became less and less interested in what she does. It felt like she was doing the same things over and over again without any remarkable effort which made my addiction to her seems pretty dull. I stopped fangirling. It kind of felt like a break up, like a commitement I never made and I would be lying if I said I didn't felt bad right after. It took me a few months to recover and get over this delusional toxic relationship I signed up to. In fact, I might have learned a lesson from this experience, a very important thing when it comes to my relationships with people. Deep-digging into people's lives, no matter how interesting they are, makes them somehow uninteresting.